Like a true working girl, I love casual Fridays. I look forward to busting out my jeans every single week! It’s almost as exciting as the impending weekend … almost. Fortunately, the dress code at my new job is different from my last job–in a good way. I get to open up my closet a bit more than I’m used to, which is so fun if you’re a fashion lover like I am.
Today, I’m showing you an outfit that is exactly like what I wear on casual Fridays. It’s still warm (hello -11 degree weather) and polished for the office. I like wearing simple (different from boring!) outfits to work because I don’t want to have to fuss with my clothing or feel uncomfortable for nine hours. As things pick up at my job and I get more acclimated, my days will include going to various meetings or locking in on a project to hit a deadline. Wearing uncomfortable or fussy clothing will only make a long, busy day more stressful.
I can’t take any added distractions at work. I am a perfectionist that would rather die than mess something up and risk disappointing my co-workers. This is a common theme in my life. I absolutely hate feeling like I didn’t meet expectations.
I am such a speed limit driver because I don’t want to get pulled over and face being reprimanded by the officer. In high school, I never wanted to do poorly because I didn’t want to have to talk about my academic shortcomings with a teacher (except Mr. Blakeman … I probably should have failed Physics lol). At work I feel like I am letting down the person who took a chance on me if I mess something up. I start thinking about how they could have hired someone else who wouldn’t disappoint them. My mind is SO good at spinning things out of proportion. Satan knows all my buttons and how to work me into a stressed, nervous, self-absorbed mess.
I have so often lived my life in fear of being less than what’s expected. Being vulnerable isn’t my strong suit. Even when I write my blog posts, I’m still very guarded. I only share what I want. With social media and blogging giving the appearance of being perfect and glamorous all the time, I really try to speak honestly on here. You all know that. I say that quite often. However, I can tell the truth and still be guarded.
Eventually, I will have to face someone who I have disappointed. This wall I put up that protects me from feeling like I’ve let you down isn’t something that is sustainable because I AM NOT PERFECT. But, man I try so hard to live a life that God would smile at … because I don’t want to let Him down.
I know that I can’t ever be a perfect follower, but I’m going to try to get as close as I can because I think that by following His instruction He will bless me. Following His Word doesn’t guarantee an easy life–that’s not what I’m after. But, it does guarantee that He will be with us always. I want Him to be with me, and I want Him to work in my life. (I’m learning as I write this that God doesn’t need my participation or permission to move in my life. He will work in His time. I must be listening and ready to respond!)
Believe me, I know what is wrong with me. I also know that God is a forgiving God. Jesus came to set us free from the law, not so that we could continue to live like a Pharisee! He also came so we could relax a bit. We can relish in His goodness and serve Him out of every crevice of our hearts.
As you probably know now, relaxing is not what I’m best at. I have to work every day at finding peace in Him. Because when I’m at peace because through Him, I can be a vessel for Him to reach others. When I’m working furiously and selfishly on a project that I’m so afraid to mess up, I don’t see the co-worker who really needs some help or an encouraging word. My selfishness prohibits me from seeing my surroundings like Christ does and severely limits the ways He can use me to grow His kingdom.
If (and realistically, when) I get fired, rejected or ticketed, He will be my peace. When I’m employed, loved and obeying the law, yet irrationally stressing out about disappointing someone, He will still be my peace. His plan, love, wisdom and confidence will be my peace. When I’m staring down the barrel, it is His strength that will give me the confidence to press on.
“Let us acknowledge the Lord; let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises, He will appear; He will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth.” Hosea 6:3
(He will come to us like rain!)
Holly Hoehner has her bachelor’s degree in public relations from the University of Oklahoma. She considers herself more of a Russell Westbrook than a Kevin Durant and enjoys learning about and participating in the digital age, blogging about anything that comes to her mind and creating witty Instagram captions. Holly was raised a die-hard Sooner fan in Edmond, OK.