I’ve been reading Isaiah for a while now. It’s a book of promise of what is to come as well as a picture of God’s wrath and His goodness. Sometimes (a lot of times) it takes me a while to really get what is going on in the passages I’m reading, but at least I’m trying (see this post)! However, last night when I was in Isaiah 55 I definitely got what this chapter was telling me.
My life is really in limbo right now. In the words of Phoebe Buffay: I don’t even have a ‘pla’. My friends are getting full-time jobs. I don’t have one even though I am applying and interviewing. People my age are getting married. I don’t have a boyfriend. I’ve got all these ideas for my future swirling around in my head. I doubt my abilities to pull it off. My parents are moving houses. I refuse to move to the new house and then move again to an apartment…But I need a full-time job to get an apartment…
Do you see my current predicaments? There is a lot about me that is just in this grey area. Thankfully, Jesus is not one of those. It is amazing what you can learn when you crack open your Bible everyday and just make yourself a sponge. Last night He spoke to my unease through the words in Isaiah 55.
“‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ declares the Lord. ‘As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.'” Isaiah 55:8-11
Even though the world is my oyster in this new season of life, I find myself pleading with God for some help or deliverance. It is so hard to just accept the fact that my thoughts and plans are not His. I want to know His plans and I want to be a part of them, but even more my flesh wants to have control over them. He does things that I cannot understand, so I am literally clinging to the truth of His ways to get me through each and every day. Every time someone asks me, “Do you have a job?” or “Any boys catching your eye?” or “What’s next?” I have to ask God to help me because it is really hard to not get cynical in the period called “the wait.”
This passage is a fantastic reminder that I am being watered by Him. For some reason, He has grown me a lot these last few months and this passage tells me that His word is not returning to Him empty. Right now, He is accomplishing what He desires and fulfilling His purpose.
I can’t stop thinking about the best scene ever produced in cinematic history. When Sam Montgomery (Hilary Duff) confronts Austin Ames (Chad Michael Murray) in the football locker room in A Cinderella Story. I’m only partly joking because Sam actually makes some pretty good points in her speech. Like Sam, even though I have no job, husband or house of my own, I know I’m going to be okay because I have the author of eternity on my side.
If you’re feeling generous today, I could use some prayer. And if you ever need prayer for yourself, I’m always here. Let us all ask that the Lord fulfills His purpose for us and that we may be active participants willing to trust Him every step of the journey. May our faith reflect His love so that others may come to know and love Him also.
Holly Hoehner has her bachelor’s degree in public relations from the University of Oklahoma. She considers herself more of a Russell Westbrook than a Kevin Durant and enjoys learning about and participating in the digital age, blogging about anything that comes to her mind and creating witty Instagram captions. Holly was raised a die-hard Sooner fan in Edmond, OK.