Something God has been teaching me lately is joy. Joy despite my circumstances and my fears. For the longest time I wondered how people have joy when they are faced with trials in their lives. The reality is that Jesus is everything he said he would be. He is satisfying and more so than any earthly desire. I’ve begun to develop this understanding in my walk with him. Our relationships with each other are imperfect, but how gracious is he that he allows us to experiences just a small tiny fraction of what the love of God feels like through human interaction!
In Psalm 43, the psalmist is in the midst of struggling against an enemy. He cries out to God for deliverance with a torn heart, which I can definitely relate to. He knows God is true, almighty and sovereign, but his flesh is questioning why he is going through this trial. Instead of complaining and crying out to God for the entire passage, which is probably what I would have done, he ends up talking about how he will worship God because he knows the darkness of this struggle is not bigger than God. This is a psalm of praise and joy in the midst of trial.
Joy in suffering is hard, but Jesus’ grace and comfort are easy. It is easier to worship him than to worry. It’s more fun to worship him than worry. “I will cast my cares on you,” is a phrase from a worship song that I seem to repeat in my head a million times a day, because it is a constant struggle. I pray that as I continue this journey of joy in less than ideal times, that it will become a part of me that comes naturally. May God starve out this sin of uncertainty of his truth in our lives.
One thing I have started doing is surrounding myself with worship music in order to always keep my mind aware of his goodness so that I cannot have a negative attitude when I am struggling on this earth. Music is something I adore anyway, so it is easy to surround myself with it in order to grow closer to him. Find something that you love and surround yourself with it. Put scriptures on sticky notes in your car, on your mirror, in your homework notebook so that you are surrounded by his truth.
He says when you seek him with all of your heart, you will find him. Seek joy in him and you will find it.